The scattering of the spirit -
this state of being is a confusing thing.
Torn in two, I can't ever determine
should I be here or there?
For so long, here was filled with longing for there.
Thus, the answer seemed so clear.
Now, unexpectedly for the first time,
I'm here, not longing to be elsewhere.
And so, my gut is filled with anxiety all the meanwhile
due to my own creation of a forced departure.
Maybe when that deadline comes, I'll be ready to go.
But, what if this wave of soaking doesn't fade that fast?
There will simply be replaced with longing for here.
So, I'm rather at a loss of what to think or do -
This scattering of the spirit is a confusing thing.
