receive

...without wondering about a more perfect option.

...without trying to assess if it's something you deserve.

...without thinking you must censor or control.

Yes, just receive.

the storm

In a moment of vulnerability
you want to rush to action,
search for conclusions,
grip for some illusion of control.

The voice of fear
piles on endless reasons to be afraid --
scenarios dripping in pessimism,
all of the reasons you are a fool.

Can you sit through the storm?
Can you note the fear --
learn from what it has to say,
yet not get carried away?

Will you choose to stay grounded
and follow the voice of hope --
the one that reminds you --
you can find strength in the unknown?

your task

... is to stay open to my unconditional love.

free

Can you let yourself lean into...
the joy
the pleasure
the lightness
the playfulness
the vulnerability?

both

Today was ordinary.
Today was a gift.
Don't you love how those two
can coexist?

truth

Release the obsession with
... getting it right.
... figuring it out.
... staying on course.

Instead, live each day experiencing the truth --
my love is enough.

mood board

[featuring: thomas merton, "this", "show"

christina belke, spartan shop, anthro catalogs]

stay

I want to run
for so many reasons
until I realize --
there will always be reasons to run
And so, I choose to stand here still.

thanks 28

You're the year in which I became more grounded, less reactive. More grateful and at peace with the ordinary moments of life.
 
Perfectionism finally began its fall. I learned what it meant to unravel, humbly accepting the place of not knowing and my inability to be in control. My internal dialogue transformed. Gentler. Kinder. More nourishing.

It was far from a flashy year, with very little to showcase in the realm of tangible goals conquered. But in terms of inner soul work... mighty damn impressive, my dear. I learned to trust my intuition and found appreciation for my own rhythm too.

So 29, bring it on. I have a feeling I'll keep becoming that person -- the one that's entirely different than I imagined I'd be. It's that very person that I'm growing to love so deeply.